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Nobody warns you about this part.

They tell you pickleball is fun. Social. A great way to meet people, get cardio, and even compete. All true.

What nobody mentions is that if you play long enough, it will break your heart.

It starts small. You start with some acquaintances or at open play, and within a few weeks there are people in your life you feel genuinely excited about. You learn who brings the speaker, the Liquid IVs, the good playlists. Who's always ten minutes early. Who makes you laugh and who coaches you in between every point. Somebody starts a group chat. Can anyone play tomorrow morning? And there it is — a crew you didn't plan and didn't choose, built entirely out of showing up to the same place at the same weird hour until it became the highlight of your week. You catch yourself dressed for a game six hours early, texting the group chat, are you dressed yet? Of course they are.

Then it deepens. You find a partner whose game fits yours and is interested in tournaments and, by the way, can you play tomorrow at 9 AM? You stop needing to call balls because you already know where they'll be, and you already know what they're setting up. You develop shorthand, rituals, a way of tapping paddles that means keep going for it, next one. You play a moneyball together and lose a heartbreaker in the third, and somehow that's still the most fun you've had in a long time? You are building something — a partnership, friendships, a community.

This is the great part. The part that people feel "addicted" to, because underneath the paddles and scores, what you're actually doing is feeling alive, feeling connected. You're trusting them to laugh with you when you laugh at yourself, cover your weaknesses without judging you, watch you work hard to get better at something when maybe you're not used to not being good at something. You're having meltdowns and staying calm when they melt down. The work, on a pickleball court, is intimate — just in athletic clothes and a wristband.

"The work, on a pickleball court, is intimate — just in athletic clothes and a wristband."

And that's the catch built into the whole sport: the depth isn't optional. Doubles doesn't reward the person who holds back — you can't read a partner you're keeping at arm's length, can't cover for someone you won't lean on, can't build the shorthand that wins a tight third game without letting them all the way in. Going deep with one or a few people is the only way to get good at this. There's no version where you succeed and stay guarded.

Here's the thing about anything you build with other people: it changes. It always changes. Somebody's job relocates them three states away, or makes them travel more. Somebody's marriage falls apart and they stop being able to play the hours they used to. Someone gets injured or gets less interested. A partner levels up past you and starts playing in the better games; you're happy for them but you miss them terribly at the same time. And, most heartbreakingly, your partner starts playing with someone else — for good reasons or not good reasons — and you have to watch them paddle tap during open play.

And then there is real sadness.

And the strange part isn't the feeling. It's that there's no language for it. The one person who knows exactly what you built — what you lost — is "just" a pickleball partner, and nobody hands you a roadmap for grieving that. So you don't say it out loud. You make a joke about "pickleball divorce," because the real thing sounds like too much feeling for a game.

"The strange part isn't the feeling. It's that there's no language for it."

But it isn't the game you're grieving, not really. It's the same ache as any important ending. You got close to people. You built something with them. And then it changed, the way things do, leaving you with a hole in your heart and irritation with anyone who even tries to fill that spot.

That grief is allowed. And just because other people don't quite understand why you're so sad — you still get to be. It isn't a sign you took a game with a neon plastic ball too seriously. It's a sign that your partnerships, your friendships, your community were real. And I'm not sure there is anything more important than that.

"It isn't a sign you took a game with a neon plastic ball too seriously. It's a sign that your partnerships, your friendships, your community were real."

This is one of the threads at the center of my forthcoming book, The Connected Competitor — about what we build with the people across the net and beside us, what it costs when it ends, and what it leaves behind. If it lands for you, join the list and I'll let you know when it's out.